Monday, March 02, 2009

Weary

Read this in a very whiney frustrated voice:

 

I often find myself so dang weary from life.  Sometimes I just want to screw it all (can I say that on the ManyMeadows' blog?) and just give up on all the striving.  I mean, does everything in life have to be so hard???  There's nothing I do that just comes easy. 

 

I'm so tired of having to eat healthy to stay thin, having to workout to have a good body, having to save money to buy a house I can actually afford, having to cook good-tasting-affordable-healthy meals (all with less than the best quality of products and/or utensils -due to saving money), having to hold myself in check with my kids since I am with them ALL THE TIME, having to meet my husband's needs so many times when I'm just too tired and ready to wind down, having to clean the SAME things in the house DAY after DAY, having to wash, dry and fold the EXACT same laundry I do WEEK after WEEK, having to read my Bible OVER and OVER because I just don't get it, blah, blah, blah.

 

And then, look at all these other people in life.... just floating by.... no worries, and yet, doesn't it seem like things come so easy for them, that they have it all together?  That is so not fair!  I work my butt off to get everything I have, and make sure I do it the right way!  Why can't I just throw my hands up and forget about it like so many others seem to? 

 

Whew!  OK....I'm done. 

 

But, this is where I find myself many a time if I am striving to do these things with my own will and for myself.  All of these things that I complained about above are things that God has called me to and to have excellence for in my life.  These are good things, things that God calls many a righteous woman to do.  But, with the wrong attitude they are for nothing! 

 

A scripture I hold very close to my heart is, "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." Gal. 6:9.  When I start to feel weariness, comparisons with other people, moaning, whining, etc. coming into my attitude, God holds me in check.  It's not that He doesn't want me to strive for excellence in these areas; He wants me to do them unto Him and for all His glory, only worrying about what He has called ME to do.

 

Maybe you have other areas you grow weary in or strive for.  What are those areas and how do you stay focused on doing it unto Him?



 



 

 



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Erin

5 comments:

Donna said...

Weary...that's it in a nutshell. I

ha! ha! Love it! Jonathan told me last night that he wasn't coming to my pity party...to buck up and get on with it. Gotta love truth spoken in love!

I keep thinking of what we learned Friday night....I must decrease so that HE can increase! The dead man...doesn't react.

Praying for you to feel better. :)

Kara said...

So funny...

Because lately my friend Whitney and I have been having this exact discussion! How much we just want to quit exercising, eat what we want, quit studying, quit trying and just hope things happen naturally. Of course that is horribly ignorant!

I have now written that verse on multiple index cards and stuck them around different places so I can see it. I needed this!

Gina said...

Ahh, yes. That's me. I am working so hard to be the best wife and mom, to lose weight, to be the best housekeeper, be the best employee, and at some point it all comes crashing down. Your mom would tell me to stop trying to control it all. I finally have to come to a point that I am doing it all for Him. Its still not easy. But I want to do these things for Him. If I am pleasing God then it doesn't really matter about all the other stuff. Its been good. Wish I could have been there about 2 months ago. But it's ok. I'm learning. I am pretty sure He's pleased with progress!

Rachel said...

I needed this one, Erin! What a slap in my face! Thanks for making me "wake UP" I am posting that verse all over my house! Keep perservering!

jimmy paravane said...

Being perfect is hard work.